i secretly in love with a female collegue.. she not exactly super fanastic or super nice figure.. nor super sexy or chio...
i just love her.. fair & big in size...
. often i develop fanasty about f* her in the office.... or i could jerk off in front of her... occasionally(or rather more than often) i have wet dreams....

there once occasion that i masturbate whilst *acting to talk to her* behind her...

.. i couldnt just control myself.
after which i couldnt control myself and went to her seat/cubicle and jerk off.. filling her cub with my cum....

tell me what should i do