Alrite here is it: the second part of the story. I will put in the concluding part soon
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Leaf
During high school time, I used to like to collect leaves. I used to pick them up and keep them pressed between the pages of my books. Maybe because I felt that, in a way, I have a lot to learn from it. I felt that it must have taken a lot of courage for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for such a long time. Because of this “strange” hobby of mine, most of my friends called me “Leaf”.
I will always remember the third year of my high school. It is during that time that I met a guy who would have a large impact in my life, someone whom I would always remember no matter where I go. I found out that we shared a lot of interests and maybe this was what that brought us closer together. Until one day, I realized that I have fallen in love with him.
I was with him when he was still with his first girlfriend. Because he considered me to be his close “buddy”, he would often tell me stories about her. That was the first time I have ever felt so jealous towards another girl. This feeling is something I could not describe, it was a sour and bitter feeling, and it made me felt terrible most of the time. He was only together with her for a short while though. When he told me that he has broken up with her, I was really happy but I had to hide my happiness and spend the whole night consoling him instead.
However he did not go dateless for long. Soon, he was going out with another girl, who would later become his second girlfriend. I bumped into them once, when they were holding each other close and kissing. I was immensely hurt at that time and all I could do was run off so that he would not see the hot tears that had begun to gather in my eyes. I began to suspect he never loved me at all. It is just another case of unrequited love. But yet he treated me so well sometimes that my heart would melt and I would fall for him all over again. I can say that I am his closest confidante, I know of his habits and his interests but one thing I could never figure out about him is his feelings. I contemplating asking him how he felt towards me but I was afraid of rejection and what effect it would have towards our friendship.
No matter how much he hurt me, I still stayed by his side. I cared for him a lot, hoping one day he would realize that and come to love me just as much as I loved him. It is like waiting for his phone calls every night, waiting him for him to send me SMS. I know that no matter how busy he is, he would always make time for me. Sometimes I wondered if I should continue to wait. I endured a lot of pain during those years. I wanted to leave him but my stubborn heart wanted to hold on to him. This dilemma continued to accompany me for the rest of my high school years.
Until my second last year in high school, another guy began to pursue me. At first, I rejected him because I still could not give up on him. But finally, the other guyÂ’s persistence won me over. I decided that I would give him a chance and a small place in my heartÂ….
He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind just a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leaf to a far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. So is leaf departure because of wind pursuit? Or is it because Tree never asked her to stay?
i.c.y