I finally understand...
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he came to see me today. Yes. The old him, who has hurt me countless time before. The one who rejected me and was kinda on cold war with me for these two weeks.
He told me that he is now a bit calmer already. He told he was really shocked when I told him I like him the other day. Perhaps because he felt kinda 'betrayed'..cos he had always looked upon me as a confidante more than anything else. He felt like I had been keeping sumthing from him when I listened to him all this while...I told him I was sincere on helping him even when I like him because his happiness is the most important thing to me...
But now that he is calmer he said he is willing to discuss stuff with me. So I told him when I started to like him, all the things he had done, some of them he had forgotten but would always remain so clearly in my mind. After that I told him about the guy who now likes me...
So we talked for nearly 2 hours. It is definitely one of the longest conversations I have had with him. In the end, I cried in front of him when he told me to let go and give myself and the new guy a brand new chance. He told me that he admired my courage for confessing to him and now I would only need more courage to let go and forget him so that I wouldn't hurt so much anymore. He said the argument last week has made him felt really guilty and bad because he realized I have always been such a good fren to him. And he apologized finally for being so childishly, for not handling my confession a little better. But it was because he had never had any girl confessing to him before and he did not know how to handle his emotion at that moment...
And he told me that love is all about strength and courage. Esp the courage to forgive myself, to be able to love myself once more. To be able to let go and live life once again. He said he was not worthy of my love, that the new guy would do a better job loving me than he would ever do.
He said everything so gently that I just burst into tears. I had not planned to cry in front of him. I had promised myself that i would not ever do so. But looking at him, at the face I have dreamed of so often, I coudl not help myself. He held me for a while and wish me good luck with everything. And he told me our friendship was very important to him. These two weeks he had felt like he had lost a close friend and he had been worrying about how I felt. But he had to give himself sometime to cool down first after the initial shock before he could fully confront me again.
I guess I have been waiting for this to finally be able to let go. ..
i.c.y -
i'm happy for you!
let yourself heal...
there is now a sort of closure... and you may have taken that step towards being okay again..
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thank you. i m really glad he finally decided to confront and talk to me today. better than avoiding each other i guess.Originally posted by the Bear:i'm happy for you!
let yourself heal...
there is now a sort of closure... and you may have taken that step towards being okay again..
be well...
and it made me realize i cud never bear to lose him as a fren.
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now he's certainly settling this the BEST way....Originally posted by icyprincess:he came to see me today. Yes. The old him, who has hurt me countless time before. The one who rejected me and was kinda on cold war with me for these two weeks.
He told me that he is now a bit calmer already. He told he was really shocked when I told him I like him the other day. Perhaps because he felt kinda 'betrayed'..cos he had always looked upon me as a confidante more than anything else. He felt like I had been keeping sumthing from him when I listened to him all this while...I told him I was sincere on helping him even when I like him because his happiness is the most important thing to me...
But now that he is calmer he said he is willing to discuss stuff with me. So I told him when I started to like him, all the things he had done, some of them he had forgotten but would always remain so clearly in my mind. After that I told him about the guy who now likes me...
So we talked for nearly 2 hours. It is definitely one of the longest conversations I have had with him. In the end, I cried in front of him when he told me to let go and give myself and the new guy a brand new chance. He told me that he admired my courage for confessing to him and now I would only need more courage to let go and forget him so that I wouldn't hurt so much anymore. He said the argument last week has made him felt really guilty and bad because he realized I have always been such a good fren to him. And he apologized finally for being so childishly, for not handling my confession a little better. But it was because he had never had any girl confessing to him before and he did not know how to handle his emotion at that moment...
And he told me that love is all about strength and courage. Esp the courage to forgive myself, to be able to love myself once more. To be able to let go and live life once again. He said he was not worthy of my love, that the new guy would do a better job loving me than he would ever do.
He said everything so gently that I just burst into tears. I had not planned to cry in front of him. I had promised myself that i would not ever do so. But looking at him, at the face I have dreamed of so often, I coudl not help myself. He held me for a while and wish me good luck with everything. And he told me our friendship was very important to him. These two weeks he had felt like he had lost a close friend and he had been worrying about how I felt. But he had to give himself sometime to cool down first after the initial shock before he could fully confront me again.
I guess I have been waiting for this to finally be able to let go. ..
i.c.y
do take good care of urself k?
P.S....I can really see there are really really good frens aro u rite now. mabe u haven realised tt.. -
understooded
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yeah,its good that this is settled in this manner,its all good
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Yea I am glad..I thought he didn't care about me at all, not even as a friend even after all I had done for him.
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guess it's still better to remain as frens.....
well gal.... now u've heard what that's needed for u to let go...... well... hopefully u can.....
at least never Si De Bu Ming Bu Bai.... -
yea at least now I understand why he was so cold to me these few days,...Originally posted by Estee:guess it's still better to remain as frens.....
well gal.... now u've heard what that's needed for u to let go...... well... hopefully u can.....
at least never Si De Bu Ming Bu Bai....
and now I do not need to avoid him anymore...
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u must also remember to move on lehOriginally posted by icyprincess:yea at least now I understand why he was so cold to me these few days,...
and now I do not need to avoid him anymore...
i.c.y
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yea yea move on olediOriginally posted by SnowFlag:u must also remember to move on leh
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Originally posted by icyprincess:he came to see me today. Yes. The old him, who has hurt me countless time before. The one who rejected me and was kinda on cold war with me for these two weeks.
He told me that he is now a bit calmer already. He told he was really shocked when I told him I like him the other day. Perhaps because he felt kinda 'betrayed'..cos he had always looked upon me as a confidante more than anything else. He felt like I had been keeping sumthing from him when I listened to him all this while...I told him I was sincere on helping him even when I like him because his happiness is the most important thing to me...
But now that he is calmer he said he is willing to discuss stuff with me. So I told him when I started to like him, all the things he had done, some of them he had forgotten but would always remain so clearly in my mind. After that I told him about the guy who now likes me...
So we talked for nearly 2 hours. It is definitely one of the longest conversations I have had with him. In the end, I cried in front of him when he told me to let go and give myself and the new guy a brand new chance. He told me that he admired my courage for confessing to him and now I would only need more courage to let go and forget him so that I wouldn't hurt so much anymore. He said the argument last week has made him felt really guilty and bad because he realized I have always been such a good fren to him. And he apologized finally for being so childishly, for not handling my confession a little better. But it was because he had never had any girl confessing to him before and he did not know how to handle his emotion at that moment...
And he told me that love is all about strength and courage. Esp the courage to forgive myself, to be able to love myself once more. To be able to let go and live life once again. He said he was not worthy of my love, that the new guy would do a better job loving me than he would ever do.
He said everything so gently that I just burst into tears. I had not planned to cry in front of him. I had promised myself that i would not ever do so. But looking at him, at the face I have dreamed of so often, I coudl not help myself. He held me for a while and wish me good luck with everything. And he told me our friendship was very important to him. These two weeks he had felt like he had lost a close friend and he had been worrying about how I felt. But he had to give himself sometime to cool down first after the initial shock before he could fully confront me again.
I guess I have been waiting for this to finally be able to let go. ..
i.c.y
I know this is really out of question and I am happy for you to pass through your ordeal as well.
P.S: Are you a Cancer, Scorpio or Pisces?
Cheers -
heyOriginally posted by icyprincess:he came to see me today. Yes. The old him, who has hurt me countless time before. The one who rejected me and was kinda on cold war with me for these two weeks.
He told me that he is now a bit calmer already. He told he was really shocked when I told him I like him the other day. Perhaps because he felt kinda 'betrayed'..cos he had always looked upon me as a confidante more than anything else. He felt like I had been keeping sumthing from him when I listened to him all this while...I told him I was sincere on helping him even when I like him because his happiness is the most important thing to me...
But now that he is calmer he said he is willing to discuss stuff with me. So I told him when I started to like him, all the things he had done, some of them he had forgotten but would always remain so clearly in my mind. After that I told him about the guy who now likes me...
So we talked for nearly 2 hours. It is definitely one of the longest conversations I have had with him. In the end, I cried in front of him when he told me to let go and give myself and the new guy a brand new chance. He told me that he admired my courage for confessing to him and now I would only need more courage to let go and forget him so that I wouldn't hurt so much anymore. He said the argument last week has made him felt really guilty and bad because he realized I have always been such a good fren to him. And he apologized finally for being so childishly, for not handling my confession a little better. But it was because he had never had any girl confessing to him before and he did not know how to handle his emotion at that moment...
And he told me that love is all about strength and courage. Esp the courage to forgive myself, to be able to love myself once more. To be able to let go and live life once again. He said he was not worthy of my love, that the new guy would do a better job loving me than he would ever do.
He said everything so gently that I just burst into tears. I had not planned to cry in front of him. I had promised myself that i would not ever do so. But looking at him, at the face I have dreamed of so often, I coudl not help myself. He held me for a while and wish me good luck with everything. And he told me our friendship was very important to him. These two weeks he had felt like he had lost a close friend and he had been worrying about how I felt. But he had to give himself sometime to cool down first after the initial shock before he could fully confront me again.
I guess I have been waiting for this to finally be able to let go. ..
i.c.y
good to hear that things were sorted out
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why do you say it is really out of question?Originally posted by Yunhaier: I know this is really out of question and I am happy for you to pass through your ordeal as well.
P.S: Are you a Cancer, Scorpio or Pisces?
Cheers
I am a Moon Scorpio. I am a Capricorn in my Sun Sign.
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Yea, I think I am finally able to let go...Originally posted by Fluffy.white.sheeP:hey
good to hear that things were sorted out
dun forget to move on!
cos now I know it is no longer possible between us..at least not in that sense..
I will conitnue to cherish him as my friend
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Originally posted by icyprincess:why do you say it is really out of question?
I am a Moon Scorpio. I am a Capricorn in my Sun Sign.
i.c.y Aiyo, Moon Scorpio, not a very good placing for Moon. Your greatest lessons has to be forgiving and forgetting - remember that. 
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yea...funnily, he told me the same thing too ...Originally posted by Yunhaier: Aiyo, Moon Scorpio, not a very good placing for Moon. Your greatest lessons has to be forgiving and forgetting - remember that.
Cheers
i.c.y -
Originally posted by icyprincess:yea...funnily, he told me the same thing too ...
i.c.y And he knows astrology?
P.S: I swear I dunno and I am not him
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haha I dun think he knows...but he told me I was feeling bad cos I felt like I am being stupid for falling for him. So told me I need to get rid of that feeling and stop hating myself....so he told me to forgive him for what he had done to me last two weeks, told me to forget him so that I can move on and most of all, forgive myself so that I can learn to love again wholeheartedly. And mebbe this time I will be treated right.Originally posted by Yunhaier: And he knows astrology?
P.S: I swear I dunno and I am not him
Cheers
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Originally posted by icyprincess:haha I dun think he knows...but he told me I was feeling bad cos I felt like I am being stupid for falling for him. So told me I need to get rid of that feeling and stop hating myself....so he told me to forgive him for what he had done to me last two weeks, told me to forget him so that I can move on and most of all, forgive myself so that I can learn to love again wholeheartedly. And mebbe this time I will be treated right.
i.c.y Which is true, people who knowing how to handle their emotions at the point of time usually choose to run first before confronting. Acknowledgment is a great tool to release yourself for when we do, we humble down, we understand, we accept. Scorpio Moon creates very intense feelings for you, in which you must know how to dissolve them.
P.S: Nothing wrong with rejection. Everyone has to face at least once in their life. Handle it well and move along. It will do you better.
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Yea I do not mind rejection if it is done right. At least he came to confront me and explain everything to me. I had expected something like this at first and when he just walked away when I first confessed..I was hurt mostly because I feel like I have not been treated right, even as a friend.Originally posted by Yunhaier: Which is true, people who knowing how to handle their emotions at the point of time usually choose to run first before confronting. Acknowledgment is a great tool to release yourself for when we do, we humble down, we understand, we accept. Scorpio Moon creates very intense feelings for you, in which you must know how to dissolve them.
P.S: Nothing wrong with rejection. Everyone has to face at least once in their life. Handle it well and move along. It will do you better.
Cheers
But tonite, I am finally able to be at peace wif myself...
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/me ruffle I.P's hair.Originally posted by icyprincess:Yea I do not mind rejection if it is done right. At least he came to confront me and explain everything to me. I had expected something like this at first and when he just walked away when I first confessed..I was hurt mostly because I feel like I have not been treated right, even as a friend.
But tonite, I am finally able to be at peace wif myself...
i.c.y
Run along with life now; You are released.
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in life, there can be rejection which wasn't done right.Originally posted by icyprincess:Yea I do not mind rejection if it is done right. At least he came to confront me and explain everything to me. I had expected something like this at first and when he just walked away when I first confessed..I was hurt mostly because I feel like I have not been treated right, even as a friend.
But tonite, I am finally able to be at peace wif myself...
i.c.y
icy, all the best to u
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good to hear that....rest well...Originally posted by icyprincess:Yea I do not mind rejection if it is done right. At least he came to confront me and explain everything to me. I had expected something like this at first and when he just walked away when I first confessed..I was hurt mostly because I feel like I have not been treated right, even as a friend.
But tonite, I am finally able to be at peace wif myself...
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somehow this line touches me deeply...strange...Originally posted by Yunhaier:/me ruffle I.P's hair.
Run along with life now; You are released.
Cheers
had this image of a little kid running across the field, enjoying her taste of freedom
thanks,
i.c.y