Warning: Random ranting thread
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I wish someone can tell me what to do.
I am feeling extremely confused right now. And frustrated. And angry. Sad. A lot more of other emotions and they are all combining together to make me feel awful
I just got back from my Florida trip just now. The trip was great; he acted like a gentleman to me thruout the trip and that only made him love him more. Which is of cos is a big mistake. Because I am not supposed to be loving him anymore. It is time for me to put an end to all of this.
I have just checked my exam results and they were really disastrous. Felt like crying after seeing them.
Dunno what to do anymore *sigh* Sorry for wasting a thread, just feel like ranting tonight.
i.c.y -
well tis forum is for u to express urself...
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firstly, if u gather more emotion, they will not make u feel awful.. they will make u the first most emotions record holder! kekeke..
ok lah.. joke aside...
back to ur situation...
icy ah icy... confusion comes in when you do not have a clear mind of what you want..
i know wat u r going thru now.. times and times and again, he never fail to appear at the worse times... his appearance never seems to push you towards the path you decided (or perhaps not firm yet).. he never fail to be kick out of ur mind.. or is ur mind still desiring for him? secretly hoping tt things will turn out well?
icy ah, think back on the trip.. was he especially gentleman to you alone? or to every ger? if he was gentleman to you only, does it means anything? or is it jus your mind generating happy tots and images? if he was to all gers, isn't it more obvious?
sometimes when the loneliness kicks in, any "extra" care and concern can easily melt a person's heart... right at the moment when u have decided to give him up, this is the point where ur heart is the weakest.. cos ur heart is now the battlefield for ur "loving-him-tots" and "leaving-him-tots".. being strained out, u r most easily swayed back into "loving-him" when he show tt little extra care/concern for u...
i'm jus into the some how similar situation as u now.. but i keep telling myself it wun work out.. and i have to be firm about it... keep reminding urself of the reason why you wanna give up.. always remind urself regularly.. be firm of ur decision and dun give urself any reason to have regrets..
STICK BY YOUR DECISION AND NEVER REGRET IT!
if you need someone to have to remind you constantly, do it!
if you need to write in your diary, do it!
if you need to stick it up on ur wall, do it!
if you need to dream abt it, do it!
do everything u can to help u firm ur decision!
look at your results now.. think abt your parents, think abt the money, think abt your effort for the past years tt you have put in to get to the place where u r now.. is it worth throwing everything down the drain jus because of 1 stupid silly guy?
if u really want to let it affect u, let it affect u AFTER u completed ur studies hor!
If tis thread can help you in any way, this thread is not wasted. any response to tis thread are also not wasted.
Sorry if i sound very harsh.. but if things had to be tis way, tts the way it has to be... -
Originally posted by DevilAngel77:
thanks for the reply.
firstly, if u gather more emotion, they will not make u feel awful.. they will make u the first most emotions record holder! kekeke..
ok lah.. joke aside... back to ur situation...
icy ah icy... confusion comes in when you do not have a clear mind of what you want..
i know wat u r going thru now.. times and times and again, he never fail to appear at the worse times... his appearance never seems to push you towards the path you decided (or perhaps not firm yet).. he never fail to be kick out of ur mind.. or is ur mind still desiring for him? secretly hoping tt things will turn out well?
icy ah, think back on the trip.. was he especially gentleman to you alone? or to every ger? if he was gentleman to you only, does it means anything? or is it jus your mind generating happy tots and images? if he was to all gers, isn't it more obvious?
sometimes when the loneliness kicks in, any "extra" care and concern can easily melt a person's heart... right at the moment when u have decided to give him up, this is the point where ur heart is the weakest.. cos ur heart is now the battlefield for ur "loving-him-tots" and "leaving-him-tots".. being strained out, u r most easily swayed back into "loving-him" when he show tt little extra care/concern for u...
i'm jus into the some how similar situation as u now.. but i keep telling myself it wun work out.. and i have to be firm about it... keep reminding urself of the reason why you wanna give up.. always remind urself regularly.. be firm of ur decision and dun give urself any reason to have regrets..
[b]STICK BY YOUR DECISION AND NEVER REGRET IT!
if you need someone to have to remind you constantly, do it!
if you need to write in your diary, do it!
if you need to stick it up on ur wall, do it!
if you need to dream abt it, do it!
do everything u can to help u firm ur decision!
look at your results now.. think abt your parents, think abt the money, think abt your effort for the past years tt you have put in to get to the place where u r now.. is it worth throwing everything down the drain jus because of 1 stupid silly guy? if u really want to let it affect u, let it affect u AFTER u completed ur studies hor!
If tis thread can help you in any way, this thread is not wasted. any response to tis thread are also not wasted.
Sorry if i sound very harsh.. but if things had to be tis way, tts the way it has to be...[/b]
i dunno why he keeps doing this to me. he was extra nice to me during the trip, mebbe becos the other gals already have their own boyfrens with them. so he and i were the only single ones in the trip so it made sense if we stick to each other more since the others doesn't want any 'lamp post' in their way. so most of the time we hanged out together and i know some of my frens in the trip are beginning to suspect that i might feel something for him...they took pictures of us together and some of them asked me if we were already a couple. i do not know what is his reaction to this tho...
like u said, he keeps appearing at the worst moment...how can i forget him if this keeps going on...
i.c.y -
icy, u already said it.. it was the situation that makes you feel that way...
and you DO NOT need to bother wat he thinks of the pictures at all... DO NOT KEEP GIVING YOURSELF REASON TO THINK OF HIM..
we cannot control time, situation or other people.. but we can control ourselves! you cant help it if he keep appearing at the worse time.. but if only your mind is FIXED, then nothing will suay u away from your decision. jus be FIRM!