Devil's Inspirational Thoughts~
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Me....
I thought I've learnt to fly... Yet once again I've fallen.... For this moment which I thought I've found myself.... For this moment where I thought misery has been overcomed.... Yet it just reflects on me.... Like the way I see myself in the running stream.... Never so clear... Never so understood... Never really seen.... The me....
The me which people admire.... The me which people look upon.... The me who chases after my life... Myself... And my dreams... The me which is not too big. Just one size which is okie....
The me as a predator... The me as a lover.... The me inert... The me inspirational.... The me who missed myself.. Look at others... Fall. Walk past me. Outrun me. The me who has been casted all the way behind on the race track. Stood there watching the others run. Squat down by the track. And admire the beautiful flower.
The me... Weird... The me which often make no sense. Give nonsense. Utter some words which people don't understand.
The me... Teacher say... I'm stupid. Teacher say I'm lazy. Teachers who doesn't know me. Teacher, I asked them - why do we have to be this way. They never say.
The me who's cold inside. Cold outside. And looks at the cold world. Understand that it's mine. Where I belong.
The me who looks at you. You look at me. Yet we both don't say a thing.
The me, you can't read through my mind. The me, you can't drill through my head. But as you're reading this... Hope you'll understand... At least a bit...? -
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The Handphone Device
The handphone device in my hand. In my pocket, and times in my bag. I look at it. So silent. So strange? It feeds on battery. The energy I charged it with. It seems so full of 'strength', yet it does basically nothing much. It doesn't smile at me. It doesn't talk to me.
"Hey, there's a call for you." Press the button. "Whey?"
Sometimes it tells me silent stories. Sms. I stare it. It stares back at me as I read. It seems to have seen so much more of me than others do. It know my secrets. It know my lies. It know the world in which I hide.
I always carry it with me. Occasionally check if it's okie (got message for me or not?). Sometimes I wonder what if it has a mind of its own? What if it can tell me lies? Would it be as tired as I am? Well... At least it doesn't have to walk?
Could it be a deaf? The way I speak so closely to it. Sometimes yell at it... Must be a real poor thing...? "Hey, your saliva's spilling on my face..." That's what it seems?
I wish it has hair, so that I can at least comb for it? But all I can do is put on the 'danglings' and expect it to look neat. The day it lies by my side. The night it lies by my bed. The moment it lights up for me. It often has a different story to tell.
"Are you okay? You look upset?" It doesn't reply me back. Maybe it's just tired? Maybe sleepy? Motionless. Wonder if it shares my happiness when I encounter them? If it can talk of its own, wonder what would it say to me...
"You wanna chat buddy...?" -
Interesting perceptive.
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Rain ~ - the back stage
Rain covering me... Drown me..... Wash me off all my sorrows.... My fears... My misery... The thoughts which hover above me...
Rain... Make me pure again... Not filthy.. Not desiring... Disastereous... Not all that powerful... Wash away the greed that fills me..... The thoughts which clouds me.... Pls....
Rain... As I stood... As I watch you fall from the sky... Wishingful thinkings... When all you actually do is covering me in your cold embrace... I hear you say.... "I really wish to embrace you so close... But my arms are cold...."
"Rain... Does it matter...?" -
Originally posted by Devil1976:
Dear dear, i'm very like this AIRPORT, very touched
[b]Airport
Planes... Take off... They land so fast... But usually in a hurry..
I set foot on a stroll... Wondering about the airport.... Every corner of it so familar... I ever saw your smile... You were so happy back then? Wonder how are you now?
The breakfast that I tok with you.... You know I like it sweet... But never were they as sweet as you.... Everytime you smile... The hall just seems to warm up a little....
There you stood... Now it's empty... Took off...? I continue to walk.... Every corner of the airport... As I usually did before your arrivals.... As if I'm looking for somethin....?
I imagined your smile... At different corners.... You would just blink at me.... I would just stand down there.... We would just exchange look for moments... So long.... You are there again....
I stoodby at the departure.... I stood at the arrivals... I've even been to the cafe... But I just kept walking alone.... Not that I would expect a miracle to happen.... I'm just wondering how you've been..?
Maybe one day I should just fly over? Just to see how you've been...? Everybody seems so busy at the airport.... Are they waiting for something...? And I'm walking... Am I waiting for something....? Am I looking for something.....?[/b]
but dont know is for some1 or not? -
Told you I don't go to the airport often... What do ya think...?Originally posted by Missing:Dear dear, i'm very like this AIRPORT, very touched
but dont know is for some1 or not?
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i dont know, but this "airport" just let me thinking someth lohOriginally posted by Devil1976:Told you I don't go to the airport often... What do ya think...? -
Originally posted by Missing:i dont know, but this "airport" just let me thinking someth loh
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?????Originally posted by Devil1976: -
MORNING!! FRESH AIR....Originally posted by Missing:?????
Why so sad my dear...?? Don't think so much okie...?
ONE MORE DAY AND I SHALL MAKE YOU SMILE AGAIN!!!
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"Hello stranger...."
"Hello stranger...." Closer.... A movie which I've caught recently... About people who don't know each other... Suddenly getting so much closer together.... "And I just can't get my eyes off you... No, I can't get my eyes... Off from you...." I thought as I wrote... Yes, can't get my eyes off you...
It's strange how 2 people barely knowing each other can get so close together.... Be with one another.... And develops like that... Its even stranger as their relationship develops.. They can just as suddenly revert back into total strangers to each other... How things originally so simple... Can turn out so differently.... Just becuase "I can't get my eeys off you...."
As she messaged me once again... Asking how have I been... Do I still miss her as much... Do I miss her as much as she do.... The hatre & love she felt for me.... Expressed... The betrayal of our love... Put me at a loss.....
"If given a chance for us to be together again, would you leave me just like that once more...?"
I really don't know how to asnwer her.... Would love to tell her some white lies.... Add on to the chance of us being back together again, but I just couldn't bring myself into hurting her any further.... My words that would hurt her for now... Than to hurt her even more deeply in the future.... As both of us probably knows that things would never be the same again.... Yes, I'll have to admit.... I've hurt her enough....
These days... Though I've always wanted to message her... Ask her out for coffee.... But I've never really pick up enough courage to face her again... Yes, I love her... Strangers we once were, but today we're just too close....
I understand that she may never forgive me... I understand that I may never deserves it.... This is the strange thing about people you meet each day... People you barely know.... People which sometimes you think a bit more about.... You'll never really know what would become of them tomorrow.....
"Love to have coffee one day?" - Yes. I would love to.... But I've never brought up enough courage to ask.... The problem with us people is.... Sometimes we're just thinking so much..... Yet doing so little.....
"Hello stranger...."
"Hi....?" The problem with me is... Sometimes I just can't bring myself to see so much anymore.... -
Pain - The after life.
"In this world of fairy tales we live in... When we fail. Our tears just drop... Often the pain so much... That it sometimes numb our senses... When we recover... And we look at the scar... And we smile... As we play... It just never occurs to us that we're already dead in the heart." -
Time....
"Tick tock, tick tock... Time... Never seems to run dry of it.... Plenty of it everywhere... Just perhaps sometimes not enough for the day... When tomorrow comes, I shall be replenished again...
Human... An entity... A life... A creature with a limited life-span... Sometimes... Wasting away...?
Us... In the mist of everything... Working away... Standing away... Our time... Time... A definition for eternity....? Only to be delusioned by the flow of it...
Things that should be... Just like the way we often take things for granted... Till it disappears and vanishes in front of us... Plans... Where would they lead us to....?
Life... Walking on it... I never seems to be ready... Probably because I'll never really be... I'll just fall, pick myself up... And learn to walk again... Time.. Is it a map for me...? Is it a trap...? Are we visual creatures...? Devil... Is it a sin to know too much...?
Time... The day I co-ordinates myself on it.... The day I spread my wings and take flight... Human's world... Reality's time... Here comes a devil...." -
DP.
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Someone...
I grabbed my pop-corn and drink, sat in the cinema and begin watching the show....
I've seen this movie before...? It talks about someone.... Who happens to be someone's someone... All these scene just too familar... As if I just know this someone from out of my life... Onto the big screen.... Someone who just walks around... To be seen... Acting... Reacting.... Some parts I don't understand... Maybe because I'm just someone else...?
The helplessness... The struggles... I took a sip from my drink and munched on my pop-corn... While the guy in the movie just cried... "Someone should have done that long ago already... " I heard someone from a few seats across my row said.....
"Could it be, nobody has ever noticed him....?"
I continued to watch the screen as scenes passed by... Everyone's watching very closely....
This guy's encounters were a bit familar to me... Reminds me of someone....
I continued to think... "Is that someone already dead....?"
My drink... I'm thirsty....
"Someone odd to shoot that mastermind...." said a lady frustratedly...
Someone else added... "Yeah..."
I watched as the guy on the screen cried helplessly once again.... Someone passed a piece of tissue paper to someone besides him.... I think it's his girlfriend.....
The guy was standing on the edge of the building... No one moved a bit and stared....
"Oh no...." Someone cried... The body just flew himself off the building... I munched my pop-corn... Trying to finish my drink as I knew it was coming to the end of the show...
Soon enough the light was on once again in the threatre.
Everyone was moving out of the place.
"So sad..." Someone said.
"Yeah..." I thought. "Reminds me of someone?" -
Which movie is that?
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It wasn't about any particular movie...Originally posted by DeadPoet:Which movie is that? "
If you've not noticed yet. Many posts in here are actually quite abstract... They draws you in until you allow yourself to be blended in, in order to feel the 'essence' of them... Like when you're looking at a particular painting... You don't see what's painted... But also what's 'featured'... Whatever's written within.... -
AA - The World is Round
Seeing someone in trouble. In need of help. 'Helping'..? For ego? For 'righteous'? For 'intelligence'? Or perhaps... Not much of any of the above...?
When someone cry. When someone want. When someone 'demand'? Someone you help today. Someone you fear tomorrow? Someone you pulled up. At the same times pushing many others down...? Or severely damning another unfairly?
The world is round... You need help. We need help.
Without God's 'don't know'; Devils' 'don't understand'. Human is often lost in between... Sometimes they seems to see... Seems to know... Seems to understand...? But... Often not understanding what they've 'understood'... As times go on, they just get confused and lost again...
How many times must this cycle goes on? -
All I wanna say....
All I wish to say is... "******s ***s ****d *s *****y *****t?"
No... Wait... What I was trying to say is... "P****** t*** w**** i* r***** s*****?"
...... Hmm... You still don't get it now... Do you?
Sometimes I just wish I can speak out loud to you... Let you hear my voice... Hear me word by word... My thoughts... My messages... What's within me... To show you that I'm actually ******g ***n right now...
Complicating...? Irritating...?
I.... I wish to say.... But...
Perhaps today is not the right day....? -
Castle of Emptiness...
The night is young... Battle is strong... Victory is on hand....
"Sir, do we proceed...?"
"Sir...?"
We smiled at each other... Generals... Victory... How delighted that this day has finally come.. Soldiers, spirits is high...
"We're winning!! TEAR THEM DOWN!!!"
Army rushes.. No efforts... Storm has flattened the silent ground...
Minds stirring...
"Do we proceed sir?"
"Yes."
The flag is lifted, soldiers marched...
"They are coming strong sir!!"
"I know..."
"Sir!!"
"I SAID I KNOW.... I CAN SEE THAT...."
Blood is splashed everywhere... Many are lost... Before the enemy approaches...
Fear. It has made a man even stronger. Eager. To fight.
"Sir!! It's an AMBUSH!!"
He kept in silence. Knewing it was always from the beginning.. Everything is going according to plan.
"Help!!" Slashed a young boy before his very eyes. Could grow up to be a great foe in potential. He doesn't take any chances...
"Help!!" DIE.. DIE... Show no mercy to an enemy as no mercy would be shown to you... But... They are afterall so helpless....?
His desires won over him... Victory is too sweet to be sacrificed.. He turned numb. Iron fist. Strength and his power... His ability to execute. Before him, countless times.. Decisions have to be made. He chose the simplest.. The route towards his goal and victory....
"Great men were lost... Dreaded enemy has took a strayed cunning move... Creeped upon us like thieves...."
Angry faces lit up the blood field. Enemy is everywhere. Sometimes you just can't even recognise one...
He looks into the sky. Pleaded guilty. But then... This is a battlefield... Who isn't..? Assurance which isn't firm enough... Helpless screams echoed through his head... Tiring day it was.. He needs to sleep. The fatigue is killing him...
Sleep. Next day. 1st ray of light. So BRIGHT. Lights up everywhere. Furnitures, stores, people... Screaming.. He didn't counted this. Bad. He ran. All directions. Stay calm he said. Heart pounding.. But mind must act.
Racing on horses, "Follow me!"
Grasses were cut. He felt weak. Sour?
Victory. The only word which ran through his mind.
"Is everyone ok?"
"Yes sir!"
"Make sure that no one's injuried."
"Yes sir!"
Always a caring general. Well-respected by his men.
Do NOT give up. He thought to himself. Took the men and ready for a surprise visit.
No one could have expected. No one even himself.
SLAYER. Took heads after heads. Everyone taken unprepared.
"46!"
"Was it..??" "Damn! I lost count again!"
Blood that drips... From fresh to dawn. The color of death. The smell...
"Sir, we are ready to...."
"SILENCE!!"
VICTORY. The RED CARPET. He steps down from his horses. Gathering the rest of the helpless ones... He passed. Through the gates. Gathered by his smiling friends.
"Cheers!"
One offered him a cup of the 'victory' in taste.
He smiled. Took over. Held the cup high up in the air.
The sword came down. His arm is severed. Bleeding. Weak. Too soon....?
He looks around a bit... Turned cold... Heard laughters...
Silence.
It's dark. But victory is in hand? -
Love in Silence
We sat down... In this night of regrets... We laid down... But still heard no one wept... We understood right these moments of silence that many things were never what we thought we had...
In silence, I understood your feelings.. Which I thought I knew all that I had... Are pictures of me and you once lived by a life like poetries.. Of all the things that I've planned and said...
This moment... It's too far deep in silence... Make me fear... The day which I expect... Would come too soon for us and nail us down for eternity... But what about the dreams we shared when we slept...?
Too quickly, I've created my own fear... Too quickly, the hands I held on would be slipped... When I know how much I just want it, but at the same time can't hide it.. But to face this day which both of us were prepared...
Meanings... Do we always have to suffer in silence..? Sharing... Is that the reason why we truly cared...? When we knew this day we've created and simply what we've hated... Yet we can't deny the passions we had.....
Silence.. By your bed I looked in silence... Moments... Of the days we longed to have... And even if this meant the last kiss I've send you, or never again shall I visit you.. Remember I've told you what I've said....
This moment... Would be the one that we'll be sharing... This day... No matter what time it should set... As long as I know you're here by my side and you understand I have your heart in mine, no you need not... Simply need not cry...
For each and every day... With or without me by your side....