wrote this few in my Rats in SG when i was having a bad time, now then i m better, think its time to transfer them over here......
ratinacage
i took a long hard drag and kept it in... letting the blue smoke stain my lungs... its not out of need but more of a want... wanting something to happen but it will not, not now at least...
need another fix, another stick o' tar. to haze my mind, to numb my heart. blue smoke as they rise tearing my eyes.....
ratinacage
i slash my arms and let them bleed let you slowly flow outta my soul... like a leech in my mind you stick, as the long nites turn deathly cold.....
ratinacage
I CANNOT
reach the stars for you, be what u want me to. reach deep into your heart lead you out from the dark......
i cannot......... show you yesterday keep doing things your way touch the skies nor move the clouds stop the rain so our love wont drown......
i can move towards tommorow hide my tears of sorrow... wear a mask to cover my frown wear a smile just like a clown
i have to be strong have to keep going on have to live my life anew have to see myself thru......
ratinacage
if i was in japan i would be in a band and sing seedy love songs to a million screaming female fans
if i was in india i would be a snake charmer and blow my flute all nite and charm the sleeping world
if i was in china i would be a great power robbing all the rich off to feed the poor
if i was in italy i would be in a mob family death before dishonor as i proudly spray my UZI.
ratinacage
Where do i go from here??
it was u who brought me here, from so far so far away.... in this darkened land that i come from, to this strange land i now call home....
from the great door that i walk thru' the 1st light blinded my eyes, today, i live in the light and sleep at night............
i lived here only because you made it all so bearable, this land of fake people and fake smiles.. still makes me sick at times....
time and time again, you err and killed my heart, with a smile, i forgave then forget.... it is human to err, jux because i wanted u so... hoping that it may never happen again..........
where do i go from here??
ratinacage
my comfort, my pain
2 years i take and take, 1 year i learn to love and give, 3 full years in vain.... you have been my comfort,my comfort, then my very necessary pain..... now u decide to take away all...... 28 going 40, too tired to play this game, will i ever be able to start all over again. to be the comfort or the pain.........