today is my 2nd last paper!!! finally i have a wk till my last paper.... so here's what I can write while having fever....
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Episode #19
I slowly open my eyes, blinking in the morning sun that shone into the room. Turning away from the window, I blinked and went "Ah!!!" It was Jason with his face right next to mine.
"You gave me a shock...."
"Am I that frightening?" he asked smilingly.
"No lah...."
"Why you so scared then?"
"I wake up with your face so near mah... of cos will get a shock..."
"No, I mean this." And he pointed at the covers.
Then I realised I have subconsciously pulled the covers up to my neck. Ok this is gonna be a bit hard to explain. While I'm still trying to look for the right words to say, he sat up straight by my bed. He was looking down at the floor, and I knew I must say or do something soon.
I sat up straight too, and of cos not with the covers still at my neck. I felt so bad that I had an urge to hold his hand or something. Yet I knew if I do it out of sympathy it would hurt him even more.
"Jo....." he finally looked up from the floor at me.
"Y.....yah?" I replied with a smile that I tried to squeeze out.
"Are we together?"
"Huh? What do you mean?" Yes I am lying of cos I knew what he meant, I just dunnoe how else to react.
"I mean... do you like me at all?"
"Of cos I do."
"Really??" Jason leaned over and stared straight at my eyes. Looking into his eyes, I could just nodded.
"But do you love me?" he pressed on.
I was startled. All I could do was stared blankly at him, my throat suddenly felt all dried up.
"I... I.... I have.... never thought abt that...." I had to pull away from his intense eyes.
Suddenly he ruffled my hair. "Go wash up you sleepy head! Time for breakfast!" I turned and puzzled to see him all smiling again. But I was glad I don't have to answer anymore of questions.
"You have 5 mins!!!"
"Har? Not enuff lah!" I complained as I jumped out of bed and dashed into the bathroom.
Once behind the closed door of the bathroom, I let out a sign. Is it a relief? Or am I sad? I have no idea, it just all too confusing for me right now....