“I have to be leaving. But I won’t let that come between us, okay?”
“Okay.”
Doesn't matter who you were,
what ya said,
what ya did.
I'm a Devil now.
You know who you all are.
Making promises you never fail to break.
Tossing me aside once you don't need my assistance anymore.
Very simple, fuck you. Fuck off.
I don't owe you shit.
I'm fucking tired of dealing with such fuckos.
There's always a way.
It's funny.
I've seen you through your hard times. And you call me your good friend.
But ask yourself, do you really know me? Do you understand me?
Have you bothered talking to me without any motive?
I guess not.
After all, I'm just a friend.
If I'm the last man, why even bother?
Everyone's leaving this place.. At this rate, I have no one to guide me, and no more kawan-kawan to talk to, to eat lunch/dinner with.. So why the bloody hell I wanna keep staying on? But if i leave, i lose the prospects of good money and stable future.. But on the other hand, this place treats us like shit.. Is it worthwhile withstanding all the shit for the money?
"It's ok, you don't have to be nice to me. I'm already used to the fact that you're not nice to me."
“I have to be leaving. But I won’t let that come between us, okay?”
“Okay.”
You can speak in a holier-than-thou manner while the standing truth is that you are nothing more than a backstabbing, insecure piece of garbage.
I actually thought you were a friend.
I thought wrong.
I've learnt my lesson.
All you are obsessed about - vanity, glamour, attention. Anything can be given up, just for them, even your own modesty.
Yet you are trying to give the impression of 'demure', 'innocent'.
Fuck you.
"Can I cut myself now....?"
Why do you always love to make my flaws shine, while my better points are left in the sand?
I know you're going through a hard period, I'm doing my best to help you through it, but when you vent your frustration on me, you think it feels good? What then if I'm frustrated? Do I vent it on you? Have I ever vented it on you?
You are fantastic at making me feel useless.
Well, who gives a flying fuck. Perhaps I am.
"It's funny how people ask you to be happy, yet they try to do things which hurts you....."
"Can someone pls tell me why I am bleeding, it's like I can't control myself anymore... All my logics seem to be failing me and I'm just like sitting here, waiting for myself to bleed to death... It's not that I'm that afraid, but the pain is hurting.... Slowly, you just feel weak and hollow......"
"It's so quiet out there. The day's gonna break soon and all I can hear are cars passing by occasionally... Yet why is it that all I can hear is rain pouring heavily outside my window..? How can I learn to trust again when no one out there really seems able to be trusted....? Sometimes I just wish I could find out about the ultimate truth and end my life right after.... Ugly enough to kill me...? Or beautifully enough for me to die for it.....?"
"So lost and confused, it's like I'm a ghost in the rain. The only lamp I can see in it, not a single bit of warm upon its touch."
"Here I am again, knowing that I am sad but yet I can't feel a thing."
"The reason why we're not close enough is not because we're not close enough. The reason's because you've never walked close enough. It hurts to be bitten by ants and yet chose not to walk away. It hurts to keep quiet and just watch. Finally, it's really sad to see that you don't understand what's love. I used to think that you've got your own reasons. But now I question if the reasons are the same as what I've thought them to be.....?"
"Perhaps you're right....? Love is selfish... At least to you....."
"Sometimes I just wish that I'm blind, deaf and mute. So that I don't have to see anything, hear anything or give any lousy excuses for people....."
"Can I just wake up and die tomorrow? Live each day like it's the last day of your life...? Well, too bad it isn't...."
Words. For different purposes we find it convenient to use it in different senses.. How great would it be if everyone could mean what they said.
Fuck you! Kopitiam "zhu chao" stall never sell FRIED bee tai mak one meh?! Knn.. Lidat oso wanna scold.. *pui!*
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"It's that time again when i AMAZES MYSELF.. Maybe I'm really not human afterall....?"
"Do you know how painful it has been each time i try to smile at you, looking you in your face as you lie.....?"