Sometimes I roam the city at night, trying to search for something deep within me.I am a lost soul, wandering the ancient five foot ways and the cool polished floors of nondescript shopping malls.Camera in one hand, empty nocturnal air in the other, I trudge along my path, whose directions are as random as the neurons firing away in my clouded mind.I shoot pictures as a form of release and reassurance that what I see today will not disappear forevermore, or until the storage medium becomes dead and gone.The ideas come and go, in truth, sometimes I do not even know what I'm looking for, and I move around , hoping to be at one cross-junction where I can bump into you once again.It seems very sad and surreal, but my heart operates like a trishaw rider, sometimes here, sometimes unable to be found.I feel empty inside at times, for reasons I can not even decipher for now.It hurts, it really hurts to be there and the alley is empty.I want a corridor filled with laughter, not with the mocking silence that I've seen one time too many.I want love, I want hope, I want the goddamn sunrise, I want my life back, I want to be free of my useless nationalistic obligations, but most of all...I want YOU.
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Anyone here felt something similar in their hearts before?
