i'll be strong.. battleship steel in my soul...
last week, one of my slightly unbalanced clerical officers asked me why i seem so happy all the time... he's actually spoken to other officers serious about his suicidal tendencies...
he said he wished he was like me

i said he should never wish to be like me.. my life's pretty much shi
t..
he asked again why i seemed so happy.
i said you can look at life this way... if it deals you crap, you can be miserable or you can try to be happy... i try to be happy and after a while, plus the fact that i know that there are more miserable people out there trying their damnest to be happy and succeeding, i cannot let myself be mired in self-pity and misery... i turn out happier at the end of the day...
life could be worse.. not by much...
life could be much better, by a hell of a lot more...
we have to do what we can, even when it's exhausting... otherwise we will lose our hunger for life, and just quit, lie down and die... maybe not physically, but mentally, spiritually and emotionally, we die.. and we stop being human...
she's given me my humanity back... and with the grace of God, i will fight until my last breath and i will still not throw it away.. ever again...
everyday is a struggle... i will still struggle on...
sometimes, humanity is all we have...
therefore, cherish the love you have

you are blessed...
and say a prayer for those who struggle to keep sane, to cling on to their humanity, who choose to feel even though the only thing they feel at the moment is anguish...
see why i'm feeling hazy and blue?

Originally posted by skinnybeanie:
not exactly in a great mood this morning huh?
well, hope as the day goes, there'll be something to cheer you up