sometimes, the person you marry...
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is not the person you love most...
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this was something u said to me... towards the end of us...
we met..nearly 4 years ago... i remember that i didn't have a good impression of you at that time... you were much too quiet... and that goofy grin of yours.. i didn't like it at all, i used to think it was rather irritating... but... it grew to be something i loved about you....
middle of 1998... it was the beginning of us...
we started seeing each other very often... because our mutual friend "Al" just broke up with his gf.. and we were both there, supposedly to be around for him, to comfort and console him.. it was during this time.. that we started talking.. and when we stayed over at Al's place.. we'd spend the entire night talking... after Al knocked out.. from all the alcohol...
i remember the night it all started... Al had already knocked out... but both of us were still awake.. we were lying in bed... talking... u told me about the past year.. about how u felt for me.. but i was with someone else.. and how difficult it was for you when you knew... you said alot more... and then... u turned towards me... looked deeply into my eyes... and lightly lightly kissed me..
it was the first time in my entire life... that i can finally use the word "magical"... it was something i thought i would only read about in story books... but it happened to me...that night... -
u speakin frm experience...?
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we became a couple.. an item... it was the most natural thing to happen...
we would talk all the time... shared every single detail of our past... there is nothing that we couldn't talk about... and we'd gotten to understand each other so well... that sometimes, we don't even need to say anything.. and we'd both know what the other is thinking.. or is about to say. we'd spend so much time together... going out with other friends... or just being by ourselves... it didn't matter where we are... or who we are with... just being next to you... is bliss in itself... -
for the first time in my life, i knew, for sure... that you are the ONE. i was only 21... but there was no one else.. that could make me feel, the way you make me feel... i was contented, with all the simple pleasures of life...with you. i don't need you to bring me to expensive places, when a simple night out with you means so much more to me. i don't need expensive gifts... when a call from you, or a kiss, would do more than anything material could.
the best thing, you did for me... was... all the times that you would come over to my place on saturday mornings, get my mum to let you in... and just sit beside me... while i was still sleeping.. and be the very first thing i see when i open my eyes.... you probably have no idea.. what those mornings meant to me... there was nothing else that i wanted.. than to be able to do that... everyday.. for the rest of my life...
and... the happiest, most blissful day in my life.. even up till now was with you. it was during our short trip in malaysia.. in december 1998... we were in penang, staying in a hotel by the sea... the name of the hotel was paradise... that morning... i was awake just before sunrise... you had your arms around me.. still sleeping... i was looking out the window.. watching.. as the sky and the sea, turn from dark blue.. to a lighter shade of blue.. and finally... the sun peeking out from the horizon... i never thought it could be humanly possible to feel so in love.. so contented... -
i guess... no one is suppose to have so much happiness in their lives... i guess i've had too much.. and that it was unfair... because.. things fell apart. u got too caught up in the rat race... to earn more.. to achieve more... u said it was so that u could give me more. i didn't need that... but i guess you did. or.... perhaps... you've gotten tired of me... suddenly... what we used to be contented with.. wasn't enough for you anymore... from the heights of heaven... i fell... into the depths of hell... i no longer felt loved.. i felt neglected... unwanted... and...out of a moment of impulse... i said i wanted to break up...
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after our break up... you seemed to care more about me... you started to put in effort.. into trying to reviving the old relationship we had... i was still very disappointed in you... i wanted to give us another chance... but i didn't want to be disappointed again so soon......
maybe fate was toying with us... someone else came into my life... although i could never ever love him as i did for you... i was with him.. because he touched me with his sincerity then...
but u didn't give up... u continued in your efforts to prove to me that you still treasured us.. i'd always remember you saying... that i am the person you love most... you've waited a year before we were together... and u'd still wait... until the day we'd be together again... because u said.. i'm worth the wait... -
a few months later... i knew i couldn't deny myself any longer... it was still you that i love most... and you were still around... it was difficult times... but... finally... i did leave the other guy.
i wanted to be with you again... you didn't seem any different... but.. very soon... i found out from another friend, that you already have another girlfriend.. you didn't even wanted to let me know... i confronted you with it... u didn't deny it... and u still said.. that i am the person you love most...
i wanted to leave for good... but you wouldn't let me... this dragged on and on.... much more longer than it should have... you told me u didn't want to hurt her.. but you don't want to let me leave either... i was, and still is... the person you love most... only this time.. you added this sentence.."sometimes, the person you marry, may not be the person you love most"..... -
we no longer see each other anymore... things between us have gotten beyond repair... i don't suppose we'd ever see each other again... much less talk...
but... i'd never forget this relationship... i've never thought it was possible for anyone to feel the love i had felt... i still occassionally get into a daze... thinking about the happier times we had together... i know, i'd never be able to feel this way about anyone else... i cannot explain why.. after all the hurt and pain you've caused me.. i can still feel this way about you...
i am 24 this year... i know, very soon... it would be time for me to settle down... to be with someone else... and... start my own family... now.. i fully understand what you mean.. when you said..."sometimes, the person you marry, is not the person you love most..." -
all i want to say now is.... thank you.. for letting me feel what it means to love... the way no one else could ever make me feel.. not every story would have a happy ending... i know mine would definitely never have a happy ending... but... to be able to feel the love.. the magic.. to have felt what it meant to be in heaven....to have had felt it the way i did.... so deeply... is something i should be thankful for....
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haha.. maybe.. today a girl i loved is getting engagedOriginally posted by tibirg:u speakin frm experience...? -
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i can never marry the gal i love the most...
/me starts dreaming of yuna from ffx... -
http://wang-yuan.nease.net/wygs.htm
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Originally posted by dark_slayer79:haha.. maybe.. today a girl i loved is getting engaged
ouch! i'll bet that hurts like freaking crazy. -
take care bro~~
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erm...so the story is from a gal or guy's point of view?
slayer is guy? sori.. i abit blur.. -
sure.. definitely.. tts life isnt it? full of irony and contradiction and lan lans...Originally posted by dark_slayer79:is not the person you love most... -
hi hi =)Originally posted by Scaria: -
keep dreaming... lolxOriginally posted by weidev:i can never marry the gal i love the most...
/me starts dreaming of yuna from ffx... -
let me help u http://wang-yuan.nease.net/wygs.htmOriginally posted by GHoST_18:http://wang-yuan.nease.net/wygs.htm 
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i'm a guyOriginally posted by tripudio_mutatio:erm...so the story is from a gal or guy's point of view?
slayer is guy? sori.. i abit blur.. -
Originally posted by boy in blues: ouch! i'll bet that hurts like freaking crazy.
Thank brubbers.. i'm alright as i said its loved.. have wished her all the best todayOriginally posted by jOhO:take care bro~~ -
haha.. that's wad make our life more meaningful tooOriginally posted by wuming78:sure.. definitely.. tts life isnt it? full of irony and contradiction and lan lans... -
long time no seeOriginally posted by dark_slayer79:haha.. that's wad make our life more meaningful too